Syx fell into Harrison’s arms, relaxing with a soft sigh before leaning in and nipping at the other man’s ear and kissing his cheek, “Why hello.”
Nodding, Syx slid his hands down Harrison’s sides, “Still… it gives me options I didn’t have before.”
Resting his forehead on Harrison’s, rubbing in the way that brought a wonderful peace to him, Syx shifted back enough that he wasn’t pressed against his l- against Harrison’s dick. He still wasn’t even sure what to think of the man as. Feeling comfortable and safe enough in this man’s lap though, Syx found enough will to explain, “I don’t know how compatible my genetics are with other species. And even if it wasn’t… viable… I don’t… wouldn’t want to…” he took a deep breath and regrouped, “But out of anyone I would consider allowing to fuck me, blue would be the most… risk.”
Even with the difference between a true mammal and a monotreme it could still be possible for Harrison to impregnate him. It wasn’t a risk he wanted to take, though at least here condoms were an option where they weren’t with Wayne’s size.
“But I think I would. Want you that is,” it frustrated him how just talking about having anal done on him could turn him into a mess of blushing nerves, unable to find the words he wanted. He pressed a light kiss to Harrison’s lips, hoping it could say what he couldn’t.
Harrison nodded along with what Syx was saying and returned the forehead rubs. He totally understood, and he believed all the blue people with that anatomy should be able to make that choice for themselves. Thank the gods he’d never been able to get pregnant off a one night stand or he would have a dozen hybrid children by now. Just going through it the once with Ramona was bad enough.
However it wasn’t until Syx got to the end that Harrison realized what the blue man in his lap was really saying. He bit his lower lip and thought carefully about his next words, not wanting to add any more trauma to what was clearly a complicated subject. Still the brush of nerves and soft blush goes straight to his heart.
“I know you said there would need to be a lot of trust,” he said slowly as their lips part. He reaches up to cup Syx’s blushing cheek in one hand and stroke it softly with his thumb. “And I know we’re still building that. Not just in a dom sub game of villain and captive, but like this. Just you Syx and me Harrison. We would need to work out some logistics….. but it would be my genuine pleasure – no, honor – to be the person who gets to have you like that. When you’re ready.”
Syx leaned into the touch, eyes closed. He brought his own hand up to cover Harrison’s, it was complicated yes, but so right. They might both have their own loves. Harrison mated and with a child. This was too special not to explore. Needing few words to understand the emotions of the other, easier than with Wayne or Anna or anyone else Syx had ever been close to.
He let out a soft laugh, “It’s stupid and illogical. Harder than it should have to be, harder than I wish it was,” his anxieties always getting in the way.
There always lingered the fear that his lover might run out of patients for him. Might reject him for say no or resisting too much. There were so few he’d ever even let get that close and he couldn’t picture any of them treating him like that… yet the fear lingered. Coupled on top of the scars of his past it made his wants so difficult to achieve.
“The desire is there,” Syx gave him a delicate smile, “the challenge is getting mind and body on the same page as the heart,” threading his fingers with Harrison’s he added, “I want this too. Us like this,” kissing each knuckle. To have a real relationship and not just a game, “Both is good.”
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