“It’s okay. You’re going to be okay.”

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Syx howled in pain, clinging tightly to his beloved Anna. He couldn’t cry, not like humans, yet his eyes filled with unshed tears. Inner eyelids blinking them away and blurring his vision. His face flushed as he rubbed against her, seeking comfort. It had been the hardest decision he’d ever made. Ripping his heart to shreds and leaving him a mess. It was right and needed. It was horrible and he was a monster. Nessisary to move on. Regretted instantly. Heartache overcame him.

Taking the encouragement, Syx pulled off his lover’s shirt and his own soon following. Pressing himself as close as possible to Anna, the blue man attempted to melt into her skin. Nestling against her with soft kisses and caresses, “I love you. Love you so much.”

-Please let this last forever-

Anna’s hair was a bit messy from the shirt slipping over her head, not looking bothered in the slightest that she was almost entirely naked before him. Then again, she was almost always in a state of half naked anyways, considering how thin she preferred her clothing to be.

Shifting, Anna brought him down with her as she laid on her back, wrapping her legs around his hips, her arms firmly around his shoulders as she tried everything she could to show how much she loved him, to help him feel the level of dedication she had to him.

“I love you too.. more than I could possibly explain..” she whispered the words reverently against his lips.

Wrapped in her embrace, Syx buried himself in her smell, the feel of her love. Taking comfort in woman who had become a rock to him in the insanity of this new world filled with powerful magic and curses and monsters. Tangling their naked bodies together with soft touches until his mind could find some sort of peace.

“It’s okay. You’re going to be okay.”

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Syx howled in pain, clinging tightly to his beloved Anna. He couldn’t cry, not like humans, yet his eyes filled with unshed tears. Inner eyelids blinking them away and blurring his vision. His face flushed as he rubbed against her, seeking comfort. It had been the hardest decision he’d ever made. Ripping his heart to shreds and leaving him a mess. It was right and needed. It was horrible and he was a monster. Nessisary to move on. Regretted instantly. Heartache overcame him.

Close was good. Closer would be better. The only thing that separated them was clothing. Syx snaked his bare hands under her shirt, breathing out, “Yours.”

He wanted her love, needed it. The touch and sense of it grounding him to the here and now. His lips moving against her, seeking comfort more than sex. Reinsurance. Companionship. Love.

“I’m yours,” a chant on his lips, -I need you, I want you- “Please?”

“Yes..” she breathed, though she wasn’t entirely positive just what it was he was asking for. To her, she didn’t have to know just what it was he wanted, what he was asking for.. if it was in her power to give it to him, she would do so without so much as a second of hesitation. She trusted Syx with all her heart, and knew he would never ask her something that she wasn’t ready to do, or couldn’t do.. felt that to her very soul.

Following his lead, Anna slipped her hand beneath his clothing, pressing her palm against his bare skin, letting her lips descend to his once again.. though she let him pick the pace, let him choose just where it was this would go. She kept it slow, letting her senses and Syx himself lead her to what he needed.

Taking the encouragement, Syx pulled off his lover’s shirt and his own soon following. Pressing himself as close as possible to Anna, the blue man attempted to melt into her skin. Nestling against her with soft kisses and caresses, “I love you. Love you so much.”

-Please let this last forever-

“It’s okay. You’re going to be okay.”

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Syx howled in pain, clinging tightly to his beloved Anna. He couldn’t cry, not like humans, yet his eyes filled with unshed tears. Inner eyelids blinking them away and blurring his vision. His face flushed as he rubbed against her, seeking comfort. It had been the hardest decision he’d ever made. Ripping his heart to shreds and leaving him a mess. It was right and needed. It was horrible and he was a monster. Nessisary to move on. Regretted instantly. Heartache overcame him.

Syx shook his head as he curled into her, “I don’t. I’m a monster… I don’t even know why…”

…why you’re here…

Wrapping his arms tight around, Syx made a distressed noise in the back of his thought. He couldn’t handle the thought of losing her too. It was a stupid thought, he could smell her love… but it was still there. The fear that she’d be over him one day.

Shifting around to thread his fingers with hers, he managed to breathe, “I’ll be okay… I knew it could never last…”

…nothing ever did…

Anna made a soft noise as she gentle began to rock Syx, returning the embrace with equal intensity, pressing a gentle kiss to his temple. “You are not a monster..” She murmured softly.

“A monster would never care as much as you do. I don’t believe that for one second.. you, my love,” she urged, gently slipping her fingers beneath his chin to raise his head to face her.. though rather than make him look her in the eyes, she pressed a gentle kiss to his lips, “Are extraordinary,” She murmured when she parted a brief moment later.

“I fell in love with you for a reason.. you are mine and I am yours..” She murmured, returning to embrace him as tightly as she dared, as if she could mold him into her body and protect him that way.

Close was good. Closer would be better. The only thing that separated them was clothing. Syx snaked his bare hands under her shirt, breathing out, “Yours.”

He wanted her love, needed it. The touch and sense of it grounding him to the here and now. His lips moving against her, seeking comfort more than sex. Reinsurance. Companionship. Love.

“I’m yours,” a chant on his lips, -I need you, I want you- “Please?”

“It’s okay. You’re going to be okay.”

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Syx howled in pain, clinging tightly to his beloved Anna. He couldn’t cry, not like humans, yet his eyes filled with unshed tears. Inner eyelids blinking them away and blurring his vision. His face flushed as he rubbed against her, seeking comfort. It had been the hardest decision he’d ever made. Ripping his heart to shreds and leaving him a mess. It was right and needed. It was horrible and he was a monster. Nessisary to move on. Regretted instantly. Heartache overcame him.

“I don’t feel brave,” Syx sighed, “I feel useless and selfish and horrible.”

He curled his face into her neck. Hadn’t even said goodbye, just left. He was a monster. Yet he’d never been able to face Wayne and tell him that they couldn’t be together like that anymore. Wouldn’t have had the strength to walk away.

As it was… Syx pressed a hand to his stomach and shuddered. He didn’t want it to happen again. Even if it was from a man he loved. Even if it could mean… he hoped beyond hope that nothing would come of it, whimpering softly.

Anna made a soft noise, pressing a gentle kiss to his temple, “..You are not useless.. you are not selfish. You are strong.. and even if you don’t feel it, I know it. I see your strength..” she murmured the words gently, bringing a finger beneath his chin.

She raised his head to look at him, pressing a gentle, lingering kiss to his lips, trying to use that contact to express how much she loved him, how proud she was of him.. but she hid the fear she felt. She truly did mean the words she spoke.

“You deserve the best..” She didn’t know what it was Wayne had done.. but she knew her love. She knew her man, knew that he wouldn’t have done this unless it was important.

Syx shook his head as he curled into her, “I don’t. I’m a monster… I don’t even know why…”

…why you’re here…

Wrapping his arms tight around, Syx made a distressed noise in the back of his thought. He couldn’t handle the thought of losing her too. It was a stupid thought, he could smell her love… but it was still there. The fear that she’d be over him one day.

Shifting around to thread his fingers with hers, he managed to breathe, “I’ll be okay… I knew it could never last…”

…nothing ever did…

“It’s okay. You’re going to be okay.”

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Syx howled in pain, clinging tightly to his beloved Anna. He couldn’t cry, not like humans, yet his eyes filled with unshed tears. Inner eyelids blinking them away and blurring his vision. His face flushed as he rubbed against her, seeking comfort. It had been the hardest decision he’d ever made. Ripping his heart to shreds and leaving him a mess. It was right and needed. It was horrible and he was a monster. Nessisary to move on. Regretted instantly. Heartache overcame him.

It didn’t take long, not as long as it would have before she came into his life, for Syx to start talking. Quick;y enough that it shocked Minion greatly. Seeing as his duty as shoulder to cry on was now a shared duty, he slipped out of sight to let his Sir and Ma’am talk. He kept an ear turned to the conversation, though.

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Curled in Anna’s arms on the leather sofa, Syx sniffled. Rubbing their foreheads together he sought every bit of comfort he could, “I… I broke up with Wayne. I had to,” he hiccuped and rubbed his nose, “No more dating, no more battles… what am I suppose to be without him?” he felt pathetic, yet…

“but I couldn’t… just keep going on like that,” Wayne’s jealousy had been eating away at him for too long and as much as he loved his hero… he couldn’t, wouldn’t, give up the other people in his life.

Anna had been his constant companion through it all, urging him to eat with gentle words and hands, making him do the things he likely didn’t even want to do. Though through it all she never stopped touching him, never stopped offering him her comfort.

The words that Syx spoke wrenched her heart, and she knew he likely smelled the shift in her emotion, but she didn’t linger on the thought as she drew her hand up and down his back.

“..You’re so brave..” she whispered, pressing a kiss to his temple, letting the contact linger for several moments. “I’m so sorry Syx.. I’m so sorry..” she whispered those words, tears rising to her eyes as she tried to imagine the heart ache Syx surely had to be feeling. She knew of the relationship the two held..

“..its hard.. its so hard.. but we keep going.. me and you, together. You come out better than before..” she urged the words gently, unsure if they would do anything for him. She didn’t know if she was doing this right.. but she spoke from the heart. She truly meant it.. she would be with him through it all, thick and thin

“I don’t feel brave,” Syx sighed, “I feel useless and selfish and horrible.”

He curled his face into her neck. Hadn’t even said goodbye, just left. He was a monster. Yet he’d never been able to face Wayne and tell him that they couldn’t be together like that anymore. Wouldn’t have had the strength to walk away.

As it was… Syx pressed a hand to his stomach and shuddered. He didn’t want it to happen again. Even if it was from a man he loved. Even if it could mean… he hoped beyond hope that nothing would come of it, whimpering softly.

“It’s okay. You’re going to be okay.”

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Syx howled in pain, clinging tightly to his beloved Anna. He couldn’t cry, not like humans, yet his eyes filled with unshed tears. Inner eyelids blinking them away and blurring his vision. His face flushed as he rubbed against her, seeking comfort. It had been the hardest decision he’d ever made. Ripping his heart to shreds and leaving him a mess. It was right and needed. It was horrible and he was a monster. Nessisary to move on. Regretted instantly. Heartache overcame him.

Anna didn’t know just what was going on, wasn’t sure why Syx was reacting the way he was.. but she didn’t question it for now. She knew that now was not the right time to try to question him, to try to make him speak of what was upsetting him so much. All she did for now, was embrace him with her whole body, one leg wrapped around his, her arms wrapped firmly around his torso as her hand cupped the back of his head to keep him pressed close to her.

She made soft soothing noises in the back of her throat as she rocked her love back and forth in smooth, rhythmic motions, her hand moving up and down his back as she did so.

She knew not that long ago their roles had been reversed.. she had been the broken one, the one resting in his arms, the one in desperate need of comfort.. she recalled how patient he had been for her, despite how it was effecting him at the time. She recalled just how amazing he had been..

She did everything she could to make sure that he knew he was loved.. for now, it was all she would do. For now, simply being here is what she would be for him..

It didn’t take long, not as long as it would have before she came into his life, for Syx to start talking. Quick;y enough that it shocked Minion greatly. Seeing as his duty as shoulder to cry on was now a shared duty, he slipped out of sight to let his Sir and Ma’am talk. He kept an ear turned to the conversation, though.

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Curled in Anna’s arms on the leather sofa, Syx sniffled. Rubbing their forehead together he sought every bit of comfort he could, “I… I broke up with Wayne. I had to,” he hiccuped and rubbed his nose, “No more dating, no more battles… what am I suppose to be without him?” he felt pathetic, yet…

“but I couldn’t… just keep going on like that,” Wayne’s jealousy had been eating away at him for too long and as much as he loved his hero… he couldn’t, wouldn’t, give up the other people in his life.

“It’s okay. You’re going to be okay.”

Syx howled in pain, clinging tightly to his beloved Anna. He couldn’t cry, not like humans, yet his eyes filled with unshed tears. Inner eyelids blinking them away and blurring his vision. His face flushed as he rubbed against her, seeking comfort. It had been the hardest decision he’d ever made. Ripping his heart to shreds and leaving him a mess. It was right and needed. It was horrible and he was a monster. Nessisary to move on. Regretted instantly. Heartache overcame him.