It’s alright You’ll be fine Baby, I’m in control Take the pain Take the pleasure I’m the master of both Close your eyes Not your mind Let me into your soul I’m a work ya ‘til your totally blown
No escaping when I start Once I’m in I own your heart There’s no way to ring the alarm So hold on until it’s over
Do you like what you see? Woah Let me entertain ya ’till you scream
“If you love me let me go
If you love me let me go
‘Cause these words are knives and often leave scars
The fear of falling apart
And truth be told, I never was yours
The fear, the fear of falling apart
Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart.”
“I know there’s no form And no labels to put on To this thing we keep And dip into when we need And I don’t have the right To ask where you go at night But the waves hit my head To think someone’s in your bed
I get a little bit Genghis Khan I don’t want you to get it on With nobody else but me With nobody else but me I get a little bit Genghis Khan Don’t want you to get it on With nobody else but me With nobody else but me”
Nearly crying Syx curled up in Wayne’s arms, rubbing his head on him, “This is my home, right here,” hand over that big fuzzy chest.
“Always, for however long you want it” Stroking his blue boy’s head and back and hold him lovingly.
“I loved you first and I’ll love you the longest. I loved you when I thought I could never have you. I loved you when I thought you’d never be mine. I’ll love you till all the stars in the sky wink out. And long after that,” kissing him softly but with a fierce and growing passion, “Forever.”
Wayne’s just floored by what he’s said and can only kiss him deeply and try to convey all he feels for Syx in it
Arms wrapped around Wayne, half sobbing, “You’re such an idiot. My idiot. I love you,” laughing as he rubs his head against the larger man, “I still don’t know how this will work. I don’t know how to make it work… but I love you. Want you. Need you. In your arms is home.”
Wayne being a butt and wishing to himself it was the only arms he was at home in but just hugs him tight and laments that he’s got no answer for him, about how to make it work, or how it’d last like this.
Syx just sighing and leaning his head on Wayne’s shoulder, he can smell the change in his mood, “Please don’t be jealous… I wish it was simple. I wish I knew why my brain works the way it does… I don’t mean to hurt you. I don’t want to hurt you…”
Wayne blinking and shaking his head, sighing. “ No, i’m not- I… I mean, a little but I don’t want you to stop being you just because I can’t be different…”
Hugs him tighter “You’ve never been able to be you, with all the jail and… Competing with me… I don’t want to be the reason you stop being what you are completely”
“I mean… I’ve already contributed to bringing you down so much…” Kisses his head
Holding Wayne’s face as Syx worries his lip, “It’s not your fault I chose to do what I did… I could have taken other paths…” he hadn’t and Wayne was the biggest factor, but for once Syx didn’t feel like poking those old wounds, “I just worry. I’m greedy and selfish. I want you and everyone else I love in whatever capacity I can have them in. I don’t want to give up anyone,” he sighed and kissed Wayne again, “But I don’t want to lose you either because of that. Not after having you finally after all this time… I’m… I’m a monster… I know I am. A selfish monster.”
Wayne hears him out, part of him wanting to tell Syx that yes, yes he is, but that was a spiteful part of him he never liked to listen to.
Instead, he cups Syx’s face and tilts his head up to make him look at him, stroking his cheek with a thumb.
“Then what do you suppose I do with my little blue monster, hm?”
Syx’s bottom lip trembled, “punish me. I deserve it,” he felt soft and weak. “please?”
Wayne biting his own bottom lip and leaning down to kiss that trembling one.
“ How should I do that, Syx?”
Syx rubbing up on Wayne, “How do you think I should be punished? You’re the one that caught me…”
Wayne letting out a breathy hum and rubbing his hands down his back to his butt and giving the round globes a light tap.
“ Naughty boys like you… Perhaps, need a good spanking.”
Run, run like you never did ‘Cause they found the evidence And they found your fingerprints All on me and baby run Run like your life depends on it Let’s make forever in this moment Tell me you love me again, oh again And I would waste away without you You’re the shine into my star I’d be searching till I found you Wherever you are you are