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Syx knows he very likely has PTSD from the things he’s been through, his phobias becoming so severe at times, his fear causing him to shut down or fly into a rage… he’s been thinking more and more that maybe a therapist isn’t really as ridiculous of an idea as he’s always assumed. He’s called one several times now but always hung up when the line was picked up. His last experience with a psychologist hadn’t been pleasant. 

19

Send in a number, my character MUST answer honestly

19. Name someone you’ve failed. What did you do wrong? How do they feel about you now?

“Warden…”

“I wasn’t good enough. I never could be. All I was ever successful at was failing spectacularly and causing problems… so I just… stopped trying to be good. And it was great! If I wasn’t playing their game then I could be left out or fail. But… that meant that I made him sad… and then the fights started… and I was just, so angry. He couldn’t understand how I felt and instead of telling him… I pushed him away.”

“I miss him. My Daddy. But I know that I can’t ever fix the damage I caused. He hates every life choice I’ve ever made and tells me so every time he sees me. But it’s still nice, that we can have that time together. Even if… even if he’ll only ever be my warden now.”

If we were dating I’d be your little blue slave sometimes, but the rest of the time I’d snuggle you while we watched movies, tease you about your eeeevil plans, play with the brainbots, hold you when things get rough, and take you out for a night on the town with no holowatch just so everyone can see how fucking sexy we would be together.

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Despite his lingering anxieties about being blue in public, Syx had to let out a happy little sigh, “That sounds abe-soooo-lutely splendid.” 

HONESTY 8

HONESTY 8: What would your ideal lover be like?

“I want a person who can match me in wit, challenge me at every level, and still make me… feel like I’m not worthless when I’m at my weakest. Who can hold me when I’m… soft.”

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😐- the most embarrassing thing they’ve ever done

Once, early in his career, while he was building one of the first big Mechs, he trapped himself inside of the chassis. It was back when the brain bots were far less helpful and more like dog versions of Iron Man’s ‘dummy’. Minion was out running errands and when he came back five hours later he found 4 bots playing by themselves and 2 trying to ‘help daddy’ (the rest had given up long ago). In their attempts to follow Syx’s muffled directions they had transformed the situation from ‘the panel fell and I can’t move it myself’ to ‘I’m welded inside of this robot and these fuckers won’t even bring me water and I’m certain I’m now dying’. One bot was helpfully tormenting Syx by pouring water on the outside of the half-built robot and ruining the wiring. 

When Minion finally freed his Sir, Syx refused to even talk about it and had the entire project scrapped. Whenever the incident is brought up, Minion has to suppress laughter under the duress of Syx’s death glares.Â