I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself.
Not Allowed
|| @glittergcld || Haylee ||
Belle never was one for public spaces but she’d wanted to try and get more in shape. She’d spent so long afraid to really work out for fear of bulking up too much, but now she just felt soft and flabby. Curves were good, but she’d finally gotten to the point where she could love herself. All of herself. So she found herself in the local gym.
Aerobics and leg workouts, she still avoided most of the upper body workout. When she flexed in the mirror a shadow of doubt still flashed into her head, too broad in the shoulder already. Still, she was grinning and tired as she wiped the sweat from her brow and headed to the locker room. Ear buds in she had ignored all the others while working out, but in the locker room, their eyes made her skin crawl.
Her heart too loud, she kept her eyes down and started changing. Drenched in sweat… she glanced towards the showers. Women in various states of undress around her. The difference between them and herself would be so obvious once her loose shorts came off.
Her hand slapped rhythmically against her thigh, fuck! It was high school all over again. Taking her head wrap off, her large volume of blue curls fell and became a shield against the world. The headphones had to come out to shower, that made it worse. Trying not to run or move too oddly, she moved towards the showers and didn’t drop her shorts till she was near the wall. As it was, she must not have been good enough at keeping her back turned.
“The fuCK! There’s a fucking dick in here.”
Belle could feel the tears in her eyes already. Damn it, damn it! She wanted to shout at the woman to just shut up, to let her be, but her throat closed in on her. Her nails dug into her own skin as her heart hammered away. Trying so hard to just shower and get out, Belle hadn’t realized that the angry woman had gotten closer until the land landed on her shoulder.
“Did you fucking hear me?!”
Eyes flying wide, Belle yelped and pulled back hard. Her shoulder slammed back against the wall as he pulled away from the unwanted touch. Her hand pressed over the spot where she could still feel the contact on her skin.
“Are you mute or something? Hey!”
The muttered slurs echoed through Belle’s head. She’d heard them all before. Black, trans, autistic. There were so many ways for people to hate her. It was less a question of if they would and more a question of which slur it would be this time. She could fill a bingo card on bad days.
The tears were already runner down her cheeks and it had barely started. Damn! Damn! Damn it! Forcing the words out, she managed, “D-don-t.”
Date Night
After finishing his cocktail, Syx burst out laughing, “I’ve messed around in some awkward places but never in a bathroom,” his shoulders shook as he chuckled, “I can’t say I blame anyone for not being able to take your eyes off you,” he gave Harrison a smoldering look, “We are devilishly handsome.”
He reached for another of the unique cocktails, hemming and hawing over which one he wanted before selecting a suspended fruit. He turned the glass in his hand marveling at how the fruit bits floated, “However I think I have that beat,” he winked at Harrison over the top of the glass, “Inside the Equestinator during a time-out during battle. Roxanne was pissed, it hadn’t been planned and no one thought to untie her when we got distracted.”
“Oh poor Roxanne.” Harrison clucked his tongue. “Did you boys at least have the decency to give her a nice show?” he asked, reaching for the smoking martini glass.
“Well she wasn’t in the Equestinator, if she was I’m sure she would have complained loud enough one of us would have noticed,” he shrugged a shoulder, “Not that I think she’d want to see that.”
He did have to admit that he missed seeing her… but without the game there was no point in kidnapping her. And he was happy… with Anna and Harrison and Minion… The ache in his chest when he watched her news segments was stupid and he really just needed to stop recording them and watching them.
Shaking his head to clear the thought, he took a sip of the sangria and refocused on the person before him. A person who did love him and want him. Unreciprocated infatuation was pointless. The alcohol certainly helped him to relax, “Though putting on a show is what I do best.”
sincerest-flattery
syx-blue
Minion swirled around in his tank, disoriented, “Sir? Miss?”
He’d been up far too late into the night himself on his guilty pleasure the early final fantasy games. He never quite knew when to put the game down so he only let himself play when there weren’t any evil plans in the near future. The shouting and commotion had roused him, but it had taken far to long to actually get his robotic limbs moving.
As it was, Minion didn’t know what he was looking at. Seeing Anna comforting a strange woman and his Sir looking very distressed, Minion looked between them and started heading towards his Sir with a confused frown.
“Wh- Minion!” Syx shouted in panic, reaching out towards his brother, “That’s nOT ME!”
“Uhhh, Sir?” the hench-fish squawked, looking around the room in growing distress.
In her state, Minion’s appearance doesn’t make Veda any more comfortable. Shying away even with Anna trying to help, she finds herself unable to focus on any of the group for very long, switching between the three every few seconds to try and figure out what was going on.
“I- you have-.” But of course he did, some small part of her reminds, a part that was easy to ignore right now.
Keeping her arms around her mate in female form, Anna ran her hands up and down his spine in an effort to keep her highly energized love calm. She knew her own calm nature and her ability to stay calm in many situations would be what would hopefully be able to get them all through this. Though unfortunately Syx had spoken and Minion had acted before she could actually say anything to de-escalate the situation before it even started to begin with. By now, one would think that she would be used to the fast pace that everything seemed to take from time to time in this area… but for now she merely sighed some and pressed a lingering kiss to the temple of her mate’s head.
“Minion, there has been some kind of accident. Syx and … “ she trailed off, looking to Veda now as she realized that she didn’t truly know her name. “I’m sorry.. what’s your name?” she prompted, motioning towards Veda where she sat in Syx’s body.
Minion spun in his tank, blinking his big brown eyes, “Holowatch?” he tried hopefully, maybe there had been a malfunction… both sets of eyes were green… he squinted at the not-Sir… no those were definitely the right eyes. What was going on here?
Syx pressed himself into Anna and drew in a tight breath, “Minion,” he felt so weak and helpless, “I need you?”
Despite his confusion, Minion responded to the plea. His large furry arms wrapping around both Anna and true-Sir, “It’s all right, Sir. We’re home, Sir. Everything will be better in the morning, you’ll see.”
They were words he’d said so often, like a ritual.
Lewd Tattoo
@punkrockstringtheory from here:
Having looked around the tattoo parlor he found himself in, considering bringing Mira here at some point, striking up a conversation was more than easy. Though the blue woman’s choice of topic takes Ulric by surprise, forcing a low laugh in response. “Nah, can’t say I did. Are they really?”
Bluebell popped her hip out and placed a hand on it, “Oh yeah. Can’t really even tell the normal tentacles from the mating once until he reaches out and sticks it in,” she traced one of her tentacle tattoos with a finger, “Oh course the whole thing is rather risky for the male. She likes to eat him when it’s all over.”
She’d been in the shop to plan out a new tattoo, the tentacles were still so new but she already wanted more ink. But this time something more symbolic and sweet for her loves. Plotting out that idea was proving far harder.
Date Night
Syx’s eyebrows rose, “Really? So this is like a Jello-Shot?” cutting a bit off the jelly, he popped it in his mouth, humming at the taste, “That is not a Jello-Shot.”
Blinking at the uniqueness of the experience, he took another bite, “This is all alcohol?”
Tapping his fork idly as he thought, his lips suddenly curled into a grin as he alighted on a topic that might prove some fun, “So tell me, my flirtatious Harrison, what’s the most audacious thing you’ve done in public? And I don’t mean those group orgies things. I mean, in a nice normal setting like this.”
Harrison chuckled at the thought of a $40 agar-based cocktail as a ‘Jello shot’. He was enjoying watching Syx as much as the drink in his hand. He was about to tell his companion later just how adorable he was when he tried something new however the change in topic surprised him. He sat up a little straighter in his seat and laughed.
“No small talk indeed,” he teased. “Well… I’m not one to kiss and tell,” he said dramatically, “but there was this one time….” He swirled the orange liquor in his glass, taking his time to finish the last sip of his drink before continuing. Presentation after all. He set the empty glass in front of him before he began his story.
“I was young, god, had to be twenty? Minion and I were just starting out with Megamind Inc and I needed a very particular software license in order to make our first direct-to-market printer usable by the general public. The problem was that one of my competitors was also courting this same software company and frankly they could offer more money upfront. It was a family business, Dad was a bigshot in the 80′s for hitting on some particularly integral code for Apple II and there is his son, only a few years older than me but he was clearly being groomed to take over from daddy dearest. Now during my entire presentation, Junior will not stop staring at me and you know what I mean by staring right? Not the ‘oh my god an alien’ stare but the kind of stare where he is clearly undressing me with his eyes. But everyone else in the room is looking at me so no one else seems to notice. So I finish the presentation and I’m answering everything that Daddy is throwing at me, but I still don’t think he’s convinced. We adjourn and I overhear Junior say something about needing to use the restroom.
A few minutes later I follow him in just as he’s washing his hands and mm-mmm I don’t know what came over me.”
He flutters his lashes innocently then his smile curls into a look that is positively wicked.
“I grabbed him by the tie and pulled him back into one of the stalls. He tried to give me some bs about not kissing men, but I just laughed and kissed him anyway. That boy melted like butter in a hot pan. Then I fucked him fast and rough against the stall door.” Harrison’s eyebrows danced in devilish delight and he leaned back with a dramatic wave of the hand. “I got the account by the way.”
After finishing his cocktail, Syx burst out laughing, “I’ve messed around in some awkward places but never in a bathroom,” his shoulders shook as he chuckled, “I can’t say I blame anyone for not being able to take your eyes off you,” he gave Harrison a smoldering look, “We are devilishly handsome.”
He reached for another of the unique cocktails, hemming and hawing over which one he wanted before selecting a suspended fruit. He turned the glass in his hand marveling at how the fruit bits floated, “However I think I have that beat,” he winked at Harrison over the top of the glass, “Inside the Equestinator during a time-out during battle. Roxanne was pissed, it hadn’t been planned and no one thought to untie her when we got distracted.”
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